I have of course heard of a suicide hot line, but I'm thinking if there isn't already such a thing, why not a homicide hot line? I have gone to the tanning bed several times this week to just wind down, relax, get away from things. Okay, maybe people. I am looking dry and prune like all for the sake of a little sanity. I'm at my wits end.
This morning my day started with a nonsensical text message (which woke me up). After an already restless couple of nights I had just had it. I am one of those people who isn't a fighter. I don't start trouble, I do my best to avoid it. I like to make nice. That being said...I just couldn't take it anymore. Maybe it was the timing, maybe it was just one too many of these kinds of messages from a certain somewhat off balance person. I did what you should never do, however, which was to engage in the nonsense, and answer back. I said ALL of the things that I had been holding in for weeks. I've been as mad as a hornet all day, and so distracted that I ended up falling down the last couple of stairs earlier, and nearly broke a finger trying to put the dog out. I saw red all day long.
Finally this evening I called a good friend and she stopped by and let me get it all off my chest. At one point I said to her "there should be someplace to call when you're feeling like this...isn't there a homicide hot line or something". She and I both knew that I was kidding, and had a really good laugh, but in light of some events near my hometown recently, I am left to wonder...is there such a number to call?
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